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I was pursuing my higher studies. I completed my Bachelors in Architecture from SPA Delhi by 2017 and Masters in City Planning  from IIT Kharaghpur and returned to my hometown in June, 2019. Meanwhile, I had applied for govt. jobs and was mostly waiting for results...In same month, I got a news that a road accident killed a very close and exceptionally talented friend of mine. He was the most talented among the lot, almost like a mentor to us and even some seniors and he also went out of the way to help others, even strangers! We were just looking forward to see what explodes he is going to do in the field after he passes out from the college. We had plans of opening a company together and work. His sudden death made me simply put a strong break and pause and look at what is happening?What is wrong with things? This made me question everything and the very purpose of existence. I got mentally disturbed and had to take meditation sessions twice/thrice a day to keep myself together and accept the reality.

My friend who died was a Christian by birth and I was a Hindu. Though we never discussed religion. To my surprise, when I came back home, I came to know that my parents had started going to a church on Sundays! (long background story.. all plan of God). One Sunday morning, they asked me to come along . So I went along, but I was very angry with the 'Christian God' (I had never heard the name Jesus or Yeshu till now), because He took my friend away who was such a good human!

As I entered the church, praise and worship was on. There were people singing some song I never heard and all the instruments so loud, all on mics. I had so much anger and so many questions and I closed my eyes and tears and tears and tears unstoppable kept rolling down my face and I was feeling such a profound peace in my heart and brain which was inexplicable! Normally we associate silence with peace, but standing in the House of God, listening to those loud music and songs, I could not fathom - How can this feel so peaceful and comforting! That was my Encounter!

So I started coming to the church every Sunday, thirsting to feel that same peace and refreshing taste to my heart. I just could not understand what I could feel. So I went inquisitive about everything and went to the church whenever possible. And this continued, and within a few months, COVID-19 struck the world. So everything in and about this world started to seem very unrealistic and the world of Bible started to take me in. I witnessed several healings and supernatural protection during this time period by prayers in the name of Jesus. I could not deny any of it. Towards the end of 2020 when things started to normalise, I was asked if I could try making a model of a building (Tabernacle of Moses) mentioned in the Bible. I was free so I accepted to, but being an architect when I saw the building images, I was very unimpressed. It was just a box to my eyes, nothing at all. What is the need of making a model of such a building with so less details? I had all these thoughts on. I was given a pictorial book for reference, so I looked at it but still it looked the most ordinary building. Within a few days, classes on the study of Tabernacle of Moses was announced in the church. This class was open to all. I went to this class, thinking that 'if I don't, what will the pastor think of me? He must have arranged these classes so that I can easily understand and make the model.' - None of this was true. The classes were long due and they happened to start now. So I went and attended. The classes were held once a week, and lasted for about one year (Nov,2020 to Nov,2021). This made Tabernacle of Moses the most beautiful and humbling building to me. Jesus revealed in so many layers and everything that happened within this time period was Kairos (God's appointed time).  I was delivered from so many things, I did not know of until I was freed and felt the difference. This was a very short time but I got to see very closely the lives of people of God. God just made it possible. 

The year 2023, I lost another person from my life. It was hurtful, sudden, crushing and extremely bitter experience. Every single night of this year I cried off to sleep. Not a single night was missed. I felt broken to the extent of never being able to get up again and I know it, so deeply and surely in my heart that it was imposssible. I wished death but could not die. It was severe emotionally, physically and mentally. I just could not accept and I shivered feeling so alone, left, abandoned, rejected, felt so alone, almost mocked upon. And unable to share to a single soul on this earth. I tremble still at the thought of it. It was not possible for me to take it- But Jesus!

Every single day, little by little, piece by piece, He helped me to die. Literally every moment of every single day. It was the slowest way of dying because I held everything so tightly and close to me that it took me so long to break and let go. It was like I had to break every bone of my body and feel the complete pain, till it just vanishes. Jesus made me endure the impossible! He just did not give up on me! Jesus - alone! Every time a part of me died, and I felt the pain till I was released of that pain, and this continued till it was complete! Till every drop of bitterness and every ounce of false hope and every tinge of pain and brokeness was done away with.

Jesus alone stood by my side and made me new in Him. So here I am, with a life owed to Jesus. Every second belongs to Him and is dedicated to glorify Him alone!.

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JESUS is enough. He simply lacks nothing because He Himself is the source!! What can one lack, if one has the source- Jesus?

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"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made."

John 1:1-3

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JESUS IS EVERYTHING.